Again, forgive me for the 2 weeks delay of my supposedly weekly update. So many things have been going on, exams, emotional stress and the naughts... So, lets try to figure out some of these issues...
Who shall we start with? Erm... Lets start with L. Yes, the same L we have been talking about for the past 1 month. The last I mentioned him was that we agreed on putting a halt to our affair. Well, what happened was, less than a week after our conversation in the car, he tells me that he misses me. I sorta like said that its better if you don't miss me so much kinda thing. He got very upset, signed off.. I tried calling him so many times immediately after that, he refused to answer. Said that he wanted to calm himself. About half an hour later, he sent me an SMS that put me to tears again, "I Love You". And I was video chatting with a new online friend, E of mine, whom we shall be talking about after this. So, the very next day I made it a point to go and see him, he tried giving excuses to not see me, I being as I am, insisted. I sat down outside his work place for about 3 hours, seeing him every 40 minutes or so for about 2 minutes. I was glad to see that he was happy and smiling again. And we started meeting again when he comes by and all. Just a few days back we went for breakfast together. By the way, all this things happened last week.
Next, let me introduce you to E, whom randomly found my profile online and wanted to be my friend. So we were chatting that fine day when L sent the SMS. I was having a good time with E, joking and laughing and socializing with him. So, when the SMS came in, I started crying and E, being the kind person he is, was advising me and consoling me. After that he started crying, telling me about his life and how difficult it is for him. We sorta shared our pains together. So, we continued chatting and all, I manja-ing with him. Hugging my pillow and he telling me that he wished that he could hug me and all... (He was watching me on cam) Anyway, when he finally added me on facebook and I saw his pictures properly, I realised that he wasn't my type and I was rather frank with him. Our friend took it so hard, he lost his mind and was contemplating suicide! Imagine that? Cause? Too many rejections. Thank God he didn't though, thinking of his mother and all. We continued chatting and many times he made some noise about how much I take account for how people look rather than their personality only. Throughout this one week, he chats with me, calls me, cries on the phone while talking to me and all. He suggested being BFF (Best friends forever) with me. I agreed to it, at least it'll make him feel better la. I will mention I have a date with somebody, J (another minor character in our story), he would go 'why you trying to make me jealous' and all. BFF he says? hahaha... Oh, I suggested meeting up some time after withdrawing my initial offer to meet (he was emotionally unstable, want me to die ar?!) when he was better, but he refused, scared I will reject him for being ugly (which I did not whatsoever indicate nor do I agree with). So this is E, a person who claims to love me and wants me so badly.
Now the minor character J, just a person I know online. Wants to take me out on a date, which I agreed to but is being canceled for the 2nd time now by himself, forgetful of more important appointments. He is unaware of my affair with L, and I'm not sure how to put it in words also. Btw, J is also not my type, but I already promised him a date, so I stick to my promise. I want to move away from L, but each time he says he misses me or something, I get drawn back to him just like that..
So this is where I am, stuck in the middle of a complicated situation. Happy to be involved so much in this epic drama, but abit stuck. L says he loves me, I like L very much, enough to say I love him but I am trying to move away yet not wanting to.
I know L and I is not right. E, no comments. J, not yet got himself involved with this drama. But I'm trying to see how things are going to work out, I don't want to rush my decisions and regret them later......
Complicated Fun? Complicated fun indeed.....
Lover Boi...
thats like finding tan 90
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