Chee Cheong Fun.....

Hello everybody, everybody, everybody!!! Come on everybody everybody...!!
Pa Pa Pa Pa Pa... Pa...... Pa pa pa pa..pa......... hahaha...

So, who is this Chee Cheong Fun? Simple, this chee cheong fun is the guy that I really really like and think of everyday nowadays. The guy I stay up late with just to chat and share thoughts.... Chee Cheong Fun was the thing that got us together.

Anyway, yeah, this guy is called L, from my last entry. We've already met quite a number of times. Just the other day, we met again for supper around 11pm. Missing him so much, and he me as well, he decided to ask me out for dinner unexpectedly, I called him for recommendation and he suggested dinner together. And so it was set, he drove and I followed behind from Timesquare all the way to Hulu Langat Hill. That area he took me to was so closed up and hidden, little did I expect to see so many people there. Anyway, we had out supper and dinner at this place called 'Look Out Point'.



One of the most romantic places I've ever been to. The view there... wow...



After our meal we went up further up the hill to enjoy its beautiful view... tried taking a couple of pictures there, the pictures didn't come out well, too dark. Anyway, while we were talking down from the spot.. This feeling of comfort and happiness indulged me. To be walking next to such a nice and cute guy... So loving and understanding. We kissed on our way down. (and in the car before we both drove down the hill, took advantage of the dark surroundings....hehe...)

What made me most happy was that I could feel his feelings for me in the hugs and kissing that he gives me. I hugged him tight, wishing that I never had to let go, and I could feel that in his hugs as well... Our foreheads touching and nose rubbing against each other, hands holding his face, looking him in the eyes. The words weren't necessary anymore, all was spoken in that moment.

We both knew what was being said...

Lover Boi..

UP...

Hey there people,

A few days ago, after school (more like during), a few of my classmates and I made a trip to KLCC to watch a movie, and (thanks captain obvious) turned out to be UP. I've heard and read a little about UP before, a married church go-er whom I am acquainted with, share something with us about her devoted husband who gave up as much as he could to be there for his family, his job, his time, ever since schooling days till the time they had their first child. All for the love of his wife and kids. And she mentioned that he was always trying to help her achieve her dream, UP made her realise that and like Elle, her dream was to be with him and she wanted him to start his own adventure.



So, that was what was driving me to watch UP so much and I finally managed to after about a month of waiting. I've asked the ex, before we broke up to lend me the CD and if possible watch it with me......the day never came...... (sigh...)

Anyway, I watched the show none the less. Though not with the company I expected, but it was good. And close to the ending, it was there, the part that I was looking forward to (I didn't know what it was at the time), when the Carl opened Elle's adventure book and saw pictures of him and his wife there throughout their marriage and life. The most touching part was the few words she had there for him after all those memorable pictures, "I've had my adventure, now go get a new one" (not sure of the exact words, if I recall, this is what it said la). Go get a new adventure of your own.



Almost cried then, even after the show I almost broke down. But like Eric (Takashi) says, time to move on. Time to get myself a new adventure. Worth while movie... Really touching....

Lover Boi

No More...

Dearest readers, happy and unhappy,
Here I am, standing at the end of doubt. For now, it is settled. The ex' is definitely out of my game. I wish him all the best in what he does and the person he is with.

As for me on the other hand, I have my life to look at, a nearer and further future to look at.. Again, these feelings are into the recycling bin. Hopefully when the right amount of time has passed, all these junk can be thrown out.



Well, regardless of what the outcome of whatever uncertain hopes there were, life still goes on either way. Even if he did ask me back, I would have to consider, since he didn't, I have nothing to lose still.. Its a blessing to know such a boy though, so fragile and so loving. Maybe whatever happened is for the best, after all, what is meant to be will be (though we can make what we want happen).

But never mind all that, lets not cause anymore trouble than there is. A decision has been made, the only option available is to stick to it. Though I am always there just in case I am needed. I hope I stay that way, wiser and smarter than before..

Lover Boi

"How Now?'

Yesterday,was a rather disturbing day. I am a little confuse over the status of my ex and myself. We met up for a drink yesterday, after more than a week of not meeting. The last he met me was to return my stuff.



He keeps telling me to move on, saying that he had already moved on. I being the way I am totally gave up after a while, thinking that since he's having another boyfriend already, he had truly moved on. But yesterday, he gave me some revelations which disturbed me to the core. He wants me back and is dead jealous that I have someone else in mind (someone who is almost impossible to be mine). Now, I am back to that stage of aftermath of break up, Chase? Leave? Beg? Ask? Ignore? Forgive? Take him back?



Whats worse is whether I still feel for him, or have I just suppressed everything that I am oblivious towards my feelings of the past. Taking him back is not going to be easy, its not about this person I have a crush on. Its more of what he said to me before, and what would be in the future. I am again left in confusion over him. Left to rot. I am still expected to make a move and find out and all.... I'll go back and try to figure this out, I wanna hear some opinions. Again, in the dark....
Again!!!!

The Alpha and Omega, the beginning and the end.

Hey there everyone, sorry for the long pause. Needed a break from everything else.
Anyway, yeah so.. I'm going to update on my current situation.

Well, as the last posting suggested, he wanted to break up with me.... I thought everything was still fine, everything was going smooth, just that regular fights we normally have. But then it wasn't this time, he wanted to leave me.. Was abit hard to accept, but now 2 weeks into it, I am not so heartbroken anymore. The first week were all tears for me, with our friend already with another person. Talk about the speed of light being the fastest speed. Anyway, as long as he is happy and the naughts, we'll just let him be. I have no reason to stay connected to a person who doesn't even have anything to say to me over the net. So good bye to that person, see when I am bored or something.



Anyway, so here I am, 14 days after breaking up, no longer bothered that he has moved on without talking or anything. Because I have decided to let it go, he doesn't want me. Anyway, for the past 1 week, life has been up and down for me, up because somebody special has made me feel special once again ( could it be?!! ), and there are the exams as well, killers.... But all in all, everything is quite fine and I have my mind off the past and into the future. A new nice guy (lets call him L) with wonderful features physically and mentally in sight, and my education.

Though there are a few draw backs, and a few challenges, haha.. When have they become obstacles to me? We'll find a way around it. So good luck to me and my life. Hoping though for a few things.

Till next time..
lover boi in love again